yet again..

it seems that this place is living up to its name sake.. im always here whenever feeling particularly despair-ish.

things seemed to be quite normal of late.. even the rows with my mum have lessened in frequency. then again, i guess you all must be familiar with how life has a knack of being unpredictable at times. was talking to two friends earlier this afternoon.. and i realised how the (little) things you do can affect them in negative like ways..

i admit that i'm only human. i admit i'm not THE ideal person.. i make mistakes just like anyone else. neither this nor my earlier attempts at reasoning is not an attempt to discredit you guys..

suffice to say, i value the importance of companionship.. i honestly never expected anything to look like this.. sigh

dear blog..

im sorry ive been starving you of much needed content.. so heres a hopefully long post to make up for it..

doh my trial results came back.. not quite up to par. haih.. too much of those games i suppose.. i vow to put in more effort..! and id like to take this chance to list out the names of people that i "hate"; kuok shern for being gay! and nicholas whos studying in every morning has paid off.. haha

yv's birthday just passed.. haha.. what i planned for her [s]probaby[/s] was the biggest thing ive ever done for anyone in my life!! and she enjoyed it hehe(still wondering what your expression was like..) incredulously, my ingenious plan was unscrupulously copied by another individual with amorous intentions.. though i am unduly unsurprised by this occurence, it does bother me at some extent, considering the circumstances...

well anyway.. i dont know how people plan such big and fun parties/surprises and such, its like what i was originally thinking about doing seemed plain absurd and dumb.. hehe.. i guess practice makes perfect eh? most of the plans went out pretty smoothly except for a minor hiccup or two.. again id like to thank kuok shern (though i hate him :P) and wei lynn so so much for helping me out =)

mm.. i have this odd feeling of despair in my mind.. just a little.. i used to think that i could communicate quite well with people.. to exchange thoughts.. blabla.. at least when subjected to normal conditions.. have you ever been in a baad situation which is becoming worse.. and anything you try to do just ends up aggravating it.. although you mean well? then youd just feel like that.. its sort of like watching your house burn down.. flames that continue to burn away despite your desperate attempts to douse it with water.. sigh.. some might think using a different approach towards the problem would help.. some just sit it out.. it sucks :( ahh.. enough rambling for now then.

weiyang.