nickelback - someday

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

some thoughts

its been about a week since we parted ways. its been about a week since this self-consuming void existed within. its been about a week since all hell broke loose..

i could think of many other ways to describe it.. i'm pretty much still stuck in emotional limbo.. not knowing what move i should make next..

should i be happy that she factored in everything and did this for the greater good? college life.. and beyond that.. our busy schedules.. our different(?!) needs..

that would be the ideal case right?

but.. i can without doubt say otherwise. my heart was shattered that day.. still is in fact. i did meet up with her soon after and we talked.. i felt much better but there was still something lingering after..

she did mention that just maybe in the future things might work out.. the more i prodded on the topic the more melancholic the details seemed to be.. maybe after a long period of time.. maybe after a few more heartbreaks. i cant stand the thought of it. i felt like ive given this all i've got.. perhaps even more. you know this.. and to start everything all over again.. even with another individual so perfect.. i just can't.

you're in ou now.. i want to see you.. although i know that there wont be any radical change of heart.. but i know i should not.. sighh.. every second i hold on t0 pains me.. its like being torn between two different realities.

i just want you to know, no matter how bleak it all seemed when explained all that stuff a few nights ago.. i'm still holding on to you, yvonne..

pangkor

hey dudes, sorry for a long hiatus.. was busy with enjoying post spm life and lazing around basically.. haha two main events passed since then which are prom day and the pangkor trip! since i dont havee pictures for the first event now i guess ill write about the pangkor thing first:

it alll started DURING our mid year exams (the beginning in fact) when a bunch of us decided to have a vacation during the holidays after spm.. ahha i know pretty early right? we even checked the monsoon seasons and whered they hit etc etc made bookings in advance.. ke semangat an!@ the trip was initially opened up to our entire class.. haha not much response though. its like the people who said would come in the end had something else up instead.. :x

so the day finallyy came and we departed. ill let the pictures speak for me;


*in yvonne chua's comfortable lexus cynus.. clockwise: me, yvonne chua, yvonne tee, jia wei, donny, jun wei

i never got a chance to really thank yvonne chua's driver.. who made 2 trips back and forth to pick us up.. each trip was at least a 5-6 hours drive.. so THANK YOU!


*on ferry en route to pulau pangkor. the journey was shorter than anticipated.. i remember it being longer the last time i went.. which was in form 2. the ferries must've gotten faster; it took about 20 mins.


*trotting along the beach under the hot sun

*king and uh.. queen of the rock!

upon arrival at our resort, we couldnt immediately check in. after dumping our baggages in the lobby.. we were anxious to check out the beach.it was a 5 min walk away. still relatively clean, the water was still clear and free of floating debris! hehe.. we did some stuff on the beach later in the afternoon.. including banana boat, canoeing and others..

next day next day!


*eating at the roadside mamak.. the food was bad@#!!

we had breakfast at the aforementioned place before proceeding for island hopping..

*right before island hopping.. notice the bundles of food!

the islands were cleaner than the main beach.. but a tad overpopulated during that time.. i spent most of the time lazing on the beach while others went snorkeling.. the same afternoon the others also went biking.. an experience i missed out on(i wanted to do it the next day with yv but food poisoning!! ARGH) no more pictures after this point.. we were quite lazy or it was inconvienient to take any..

despite being ill.. id say this trip was a hellota fun! anyway thats it for now.. bye