i'm listening to the music of lecture again from mum, as usual. she claims how frustrated/sick she is, how she does her best and that no one bothers.. how unfair life treats her and etcetra. its amazing how she could even conjure up such thoughts when the fact is that she is among the upper class of society, leading a fairly luxurious life. owning a property in prime lands, a family, having all the bills taken care of, resources to spend and such are things that people work their entire lives out for! yet, she obstinately remains with her old mindset of obsessiveness over small things and self centredness.

sighh.. well enough about that.. its pretty ironic how much i feel as her. i resent it.. our biology teaches us about the ecosystem and how the first forms of life in a particular habitat are succeeded later on as the former said lifeforms alter the ecosystem, rendering it unsuitable for their own needs after a certain period of time and die off. the successor species are significantly different and able to adapt to the new changes in that enviroment. ecological succession.

nature's way of keeping things going round, and i think id probably need something of the sort, a change.. of perception .